There is something magical about finding someone who “gets you”.
There are certain things about me that I have never shared. Things that form an intrinsic part of who and what I am, but things so private that I have never been able to get myself to open up about it. I have, in a sense, denied myself being who I was meant to be. I have never allowed myself to explore this part of me. It’s not that I am ashamed of it. It’s just too …. personal a journey, to just share with anyone.
Looking back, I can in all honestly say that I have never actually felt secure enough or safe enough to share this with anyone. I have never trusted anyone enough to fully open up. That much I am sure of now. In a sense I suppose, the gut-feeling that I had that I could not entrust someone with this, should have been a tell-tale sign to me that it wasn’t meant to be.
Us girls have all been there, guys too I suppose (they just hide it better). I am talking about that moment when you are sitting in front of someone wanting to share something, something so big and important that it burns you up inside. The moment arrives, you open your mouth to let the words wash over them and then you stop dead, quickly coming up with something stupid to say just to fill the air. The moment is gone, something made you stop. Is it fear of how the person might react? Is it fear of being laughed at or ridiculed? Is it uncertainty, not knowing whether they can be trusted to keep this, your most precious secret, safe in their heart?
I’ll say it again – a hundred times over and over again – There is something absolutely magical about finding someone who “gets you”.
Nothing can compare to the moment when you finally step out of your comfort zone and allow those words to be spoken and they sit there and go “I get it, baby” and you can see in the way they look at you that they truly do get it. It’s not an absent-minded, o this is boring the life out of me, “I get it”! It is “I get it” with fire in their eyes and passion in their voice, a smile curling softly around the lips. Time stops dead and everything but that moment ceases to exist. Could it be?! And then, they go on to say or DO something that corresponds exactly with what it is that you just said, and they say and do it with gusto and you can see that it matters to them and they keep doing it, proving over and over again that, yes, they truly do get it!
I sat there as a sea of emotion washed over me, drenching me in swell upon swell of feelings and thoughts. I wanted to laugh, but couldn’t get the sound past the lump in my throat. So, like an idiot, I sat their grinning from ear to ear with tears running down my cheeks.
It is in that moment that everything else fades and you know that you have found someone who will walk a thousand miles with you.
It is beautiful and magical and exhilarating and scary. Yes, exploring where you want to go can be scary when you have denied it for so long, but going down that road is an easy one when you share it with someone who gets it.