Hello December!

“Tis the season to be jolly

Nope, I’m not feeling any of that. Not yet anyway. Instead, all I seem to be able to do at the moment is bawl my eyes out. EVERYTHING seems to trigger an endless stream of tears

I don’t know whether it is a result of the sh!t show that was 2020 or the meds that I’m on at the moment, but I’m a little bit of a mess. Maybe it’s the stresses that go with my son finishing school and making plans for next year. Maybe it is about finances and knowing that this will be a very, very different Christmas for us all. Maybe it is the ever-looming threat of another lockdown by the government and the knowing that that will be the last straw for so many businesses.

In some way, these tears are also tears of absolute gratitude: for what I have and what I am able to give; for the people in my life; for all the blessings; for health (apart from this fleeting recurring infection); for the best partner any girl could ask for; for the amazing young man my baby has turned into; so many blessings

I am STILL convinced that 2020 will go down in history as a major year in my life. Looking at my personal transformation, there already is so much that happened; but I am still holding out for one more major “a-ha” moment.

So, what do we do when things go wonky? We make changes. We sit down, think, realign goals, make changes. We pull up our big girl panties and soldier on. Besides, a change is as good as a holiday and it is, after all, the start of the holiday season.

Step 1 – revamp on this, my space. I’ve kept it pretty much the same for the past 10 years, but LOVE LOVE LOVE the new look and added sections. If you’ve been here for a while, I’d love to get your thoughts? This was done just after 5AM, so it better be good

Step 2 – Prioritise. A recurring theme in my life is busy.
There is reading, writing, and exercising – these three always seem to draw the short end of the stick. Sad, because they sort of keep me sane. The 5-AM club seems to be the only way that I can manage to squeeze them in. Might as well start with the 5-Am portion as presented by Robin Sharma then πŸ™‚

There is work – I never thought the balancing act between giving attention to clients, doing their work, finding new clients, and finding work would be this tough. Anyone who ever said being your own boss is easy has no idea what they’re talking about. Period, no discussion. It’s hardcore. Then there is weekend work on the bus

There is my garden, which is coming along so nicely, but still does not get enough attention

There is studying. Finished my second year now and planning on doing year 3 and 4 in 2021. It’s not as daunting as it sounds. It’s just about 1 subject every two months, so instead of cramming it all in my head for 2 weeks before writing 1 subject every third or fourth month, I will have to get into the habit of setting out study time once a week for a couple of hours. Then, there is of course the already planned extended studies after that, but let’s get through this one first

There is trying out for my driver’s licence, again.

There is family-, social-, and relationship responsibilities. So many people, so many things to do…

December, especially is going to be tough:

Next week we have the first of our Christmas dinners. We also get to fly to Johannesburg for a wedding. Fly, yes, that’s right. I am super excited about this. I have never been in a plane and it’s been a dream for the longest time.

The following week Luke starts his gap-year, joining a volunteer program.

Then we have Christmas, which is proving to be tricky with blended families – 5 on the one side and 7 on the other side, and us three in the middle. Then, guests coming over for a bit more than a week, Luke moving out, the best ever new year’s eve party in the form of a wedding, new guests arriving as soon as the others leave the first week of January, and then some more at the end of January.

So busy busy little bee…

Step 3 – WhatTheFrikkadel?!?! Seriously, I don’t know where to start. I give up. Can someone please order me an island holiday with cocktails served by Miguel at the snap of my fingers, while I bask in the sunshine under coconut trees and listen to the ocean softly kissing the shore.

Seems I can’t get step 2 right. Better keep trying for the Lotto then. On that point, last night’s jackpot was sitting at just about R120 million. Can you imagine what it must feel like to sit there and watch the draw and one by one your numbers fall in place…5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10!!!!

{No joke, those were really last night’s winning numbers}

Then, imagine waking up this morning to find out that you’re sharing that R120 million with not 1, not 2, but 19 other winners?

Mmmmm, I think that those feelings would be a perfect representation of the 2020 roller-coaster.

I won R120 million – YAYYYYYY
no wait, it’s just R6 million – WHAT, NOOOOOOOO????
but wait, it’s still R6 million more than I had yesterday – yayy

I can just imagine ….

Or maybe I need a superpower… I’ve always said that if I could pick a super power, it would be to be able to read people’s minds. There is so much freedom that comes with that. Right now, however, I’m ready to rethink that and rather go being able to clone myself. As if the world can handle multiples of me πŸ™‚

I’ll leave you with that thought, that’s me for today. Catch you on the flipside



One thought on “Hello December!

  1. You are the super power, am sure. Enjoy reading this post and tit bits about life. Let’s see what December holds for us. Light and love.

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